June 2009
1 post
she deserves a thank you.
The one girl who gave me a reason to live throughout high school deserves all the recognition in the world. Today I allowed myself to hit the ice and once again realize what is important to me. I’m on the way to leading myself in the right direction but she will always be one of the most important things in my life. Regardless of what she does or where she goes I’ll always be thinking...
May 2009
5 posts
my red wine
Does he know what you’ve done? Please stop lying to yourself, tell him the truth and you will be forgiven for all that you’ve done wrong. Be afraid of what is to come. I’m not that kind of guy, your secrets are safe with me. Forever never tell me what you really are. Plead guilty to murder we all know your biggest secrets. I’ll never trust a fool but apparently you trusted...
i wish i could sing you a love song.
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She lied to herself and it made her happy. She's...
I’m sinking again, loosing control. I need you here more than anything. You may be miles away but baby I can still feel you right at the skin. I feel you your face right against mine and those nails tearing right through me. Oh god, this feels so great. I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen what they have done, but nothing’s more powerful than your beauty. Inside and out you seize to please me more and...
Infact; My life is non fiction.
It’s 4am, my mind wandering once again. I remember the fun times I had with you but without you all at the same time. We made promises we’d never keep. We knew distance would keep us apart. I remember the day you told me that we needed to grow apart. For the sake of our friendship, for the sake of our personal health… really it was just for the sake of your friend’s jealousy. It’s been years since...
baby come back to me. oh shit i'm sorry... it's...
::;influenced me to make smart choices and be the person i promised i’d be ::;where is she now when i’m lost and in need of a friend ::;years ago she told me that if we had each other we’d survive ::;I’m falling quick to quick suddenly falling failing to stabilize ::;i’m sick of missing her i’m sick of the new me i’m sick and need you now do one a favor...
April 2009
2 posts
sugarhigh. listen to me blow
tbroken… nothing comes easy but my dreams sure make them seem easy. Lately, i’ve been contradicting myself and just trying to get comfortable with change. Allowing myself to freak out and get scared makes me look like a fool to others and scares them away. I never could understand why dreams are so important to me. I guess I just like to be positive and challenge myself. I hate when...
I digg it.
I guess I’ve always said things just like they are. But until this weekend i’ve never utterly outted a boss. I guess she really must have been an idiot. Over the weekend I experienced Resonate with a few friends, ran into a bunch of other friends and also saw my sister. I saw some bizzare things that night and I loved every moment of it. I’ve been working like 6 days straight and...
March 2009
1 post
rambling... over tired. good night/morning
Being nice and expecting nothing in return is a good philosophy… But I’m sick of getting the short end of the stick. It seems like for too long now I’ve been the one doing favors and getting walked all over. It’s really just too much for me to handle right now. I need to grasp my hands on something that I can take advantage of, something that I can squeeze for all the juice...
February 2009
1 post
too lazy for life.
just got off work. i’m eating spaghetti. I’ve probably got about 230230203 things i should be doing but i don’t want to so i wont. I had my first good experience on the metra in a long time today. WAY better than yesterdays experience with the fat drunk man. I don’t get paid for 2 weeks and i’m almost in the negative. I should be hating my life right now but i’m...
January 2009
12 posts
stop the broken hearts
I had a good day but currently I feel like royal made a good point. So I write about the biggest disaster of most guys lifes. I don’t want a girl that’s in it for the money. I don’t want a girl that believes shes the best. I don’t know whats perfect, but shes definitely not worth it. I used to say I loved her until she abandoned my wagon to give blow jobs to a baller. I...
first day back in class.
I was reminded to update this by my oral expressions teacher. She mentioned that journals are important for artists so they can think of ideas when they have writers block and what not. She also mentioned how she knows how to unlock an iPhone. She seems very useful. I’d first like to talk about how people love video comments but hate leaving them. It seems kinda greedy but who the fuck...
Yesterday, a black guy let me use his “link” card to buy groceries and gave me 10 dollars in free groceries… I’m pretty sure that’s illegal but he said he needed to buy diapers so I felt bad and did it for him. When I took his card at like 1 in the morning I was kind of scared that he was going to like rob me of my groceries but he turned out to be legit. I think it...
Set your goals.
Today, I reached goal one of the five goals that I had set to reach in the gym… I currently feel wonderful even though I almost blacked out for the first time ever. No… blacking out wasn’t my goal. I had reached a level that I have never reached before. The feeling of reaching that level was almost as if a drug set off an endorphin in my blood giving me this relaxing but...
I’m deathly afraid to go outside today. I WANT TO FEEL MY FINGERS :) ah gee
confused.
I’m all packed up and ready to move back to the city. I don’t know what I want right now but i’m currently listening to money by the beatles. SO MONEY MONEY MONEY THATS WHAT I WANT. haha I realize that when people lie to me I tend to grow apart from them. Please don’t try and be my best friend… or at least make sure not to lie. Lying may be fun but it’s just...
Watch All throughout high school dammit was like the theme song for my friends and I. We’d play it every time we were together. I feel like nothings changed since freshman year. But at the same time so much has. I recently stopped talking to the group of like 3 kids that I would hang out with every single day in high school. I guess it’s all about growing up and well I need to watch more movies…...
looking back at old times
so ive been sitting here… using the internet as a resource to help me remember the past few years of my life. i feel almost as if i had some cool super powers just because i have the ability to surf the internet and bring up my past time all the way back to 2001 and all the things that have happened since than. my life used to be all about music until my heart was crushed by a band and the...
What i'd like to see.
When I was younger I had set about 15 things i’d like to see and they all pretty much have come true… If you could guess 5 of them i’d probably marry you. But anyway now that my life is almost complete I feel I need to add to this so I have a point of living… BTW these are a little harder than my last ones because i want to make it almost impossible to complete my life....
i'm not insane i promise.
Today was a day like any other day… not really but okay. I went to see two movies in a row with hilary. We had originally planned on seeing marley and me and than benjamin button but instead we went to see bolt 3d and than benjamin button because i’m a child. I would like to first off say one of the previews for a upcomming stop motion animation film really caught my eye. I mean 3d and...
I wish feelings were optional. I set myseslf up for some adventures that i’d never be ready for. The problem that I have is that I never think I just do and the impact it has on my life shows way too much. I want to get to know her but does she want to get to know me? I guess there’s a lot of unanswered questions that I’m never going to find out. I let unanswered questions get to...
B.S.
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December 2008
3 posts
new years resolutions
So some people posted on my facebook without my intentions on what they think i need to improve on in 2009. I found it funny that not one of their resolutions were on my mind. But than i realized i should set a new years resolution to be a better friend. I mean i try really hard to do this… But i enjoy living with the moment. SO maybe i should be the first one to text people and actually...
2008 recap.
I’ve had a rough but meaningful year for the most. Some of the good things that happened to me this year; I graduated from the worst high school anyone could possibly go to. I started college at one of the least traditional colleges in the world. I got to witness the first “black” president accept his responsibilities in front of the world on november 4th in grant park. I got my...
a new beginning.
I am welcoming myself back to the blogging world. It’s been a while since I’ve updated the world on my life and expressed everything in words. As this is a new beginning i hope to keep consistent and refuse to let myself erase anything that has been written.