The one girl who gave me a reason to live throughout high school deserves all the recognition in the world. Today I allowed myself to hit the ice and once again realize what is important to me. I’m on the way to leading myself in the right direction but she will always be one of the most important things in my life. Regardless of what she does or where she goes I’ll always be thinking of her and hoping she gets through life without any rough patches. She may or may not ever cross my path again but I made a promise to myself that’ll never be left down. I’ve made plenty of mistakes throughout life but I feel my mistakes are leading me in the right direction.

Does he know what you’ve done? Please stop lying to yourself, tell him the truth and you will be forgiven for all that you’ve done wrong. Be afraid of what is to come. I’m not that kind of guy, your secrets are safe with me. Forever never tell me what you really are. Plead guilty to murder we all know your biggest secrets. I’ll never trust a fool but apparently you trusted me three yards too long. I found love but than it left me for a chance of a better life. We’re all just a big mistake. Stop living a lie and live life to the fullest. I’m a troubled boy with no reasons to care.

open call
CHICAGO, IL (Thursday, May 7; 10 AM – 5 PM)
Visceral Dance Chicago
2820 N. Elston Ave
Chicago, IL 60618
Please email SPIDERMANCASTING@gmail.com for more specific information such as parking and sign in procedure about this audition city.

The production is looking for candidates to fill the following roles (both principals and understudies):

PETER PARKER – Male. 16-20’s. Must have a great rock tenor voice. Can be nerdy with understated sex appeal and a good sense of humor.

MARY JANE – Female. 16-20’s. Beautiful girl next door. Strong pop/rock singing voice required.

In addition, SPIDER-MAN is looking for a

LEAD FEMALE VILLAIN – Female. 25-35 years old. All ethnicities encouraged. Must have an amazing rock voice. Think Sinead O’Connor with a Middle Eastern/Bulgarian/Greek twist. Foreign and/or world music types are great. Foreign accents are great.

WHAT TO BRING:
All interested people should bring a snapshot or photo of themselves and a brief pop/rock or rock song to sing a capella.


Can I audition even though I can’t sing? hahaha

I’m sinking again, loosing control. I need you here more than anything. You may be miles away but baby I can still feel you right at the skin. I feel you your face right against mine and those nails tearing right through me. Oh god, this feels so great. I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen what they have done, but nothing’s more powerful than your beauty. Inside and out you seize to please me more and more. The look in your eyes is more intriguing than anything on this earth. I never wanted to let you go. I should have never let you go. I need you here more than anything. I’d take a bullet for you to love me again. I care more for you than I care for myself and that’s really hard for me to say. “Everything’s just going to be fine, don’t you say a word.” Those are the words I never said. Those were the words that would have changed my world. I know you don’t care about me now that you’ve forgotten.

It’s 4am, my mind wandering once again. I remember the fun times I had with you but without you all at the same time. We made promises we’d never keep. We knew distance would keep us apart. I remember the day you told me that we needed to grow apart. For the sake of our friendship, for the sake of our personal health… really it was just for the sake of your friend’s jealousy. It’s been years since I had an actual conversation with you. I’ll never forget who you were. I’m so thankful to have one person that understands me but baby it’s not you. I’m so thankful to be forgiven. My tears are washed away; my fears are now embraced within this painting. Stroke by stroke I forgive and forget but I’ll never forget the time you took control of my heart.

::;influenced me
to make smart choices
and be the person i promised i’d be

::;where is she now
when i’m lost and in need of a friend

::;years ago she told me
that if we had each other
we’d survive

::;I’m falling quick
to quick
suddenly falling
failing to stabilize

::;i’m sick of missing her
i’m sick of the new me
i’m sick and need you now
do one a favor and save my soul

i’m finding out i’ve made a big mistake

tbroken… nothing comes easy but my dreams sure make them seem easy. Lately, i’ve been contradicting myself and just trying to get comfortable with change. Allowing myself to freak out and get scared makes me look like a fool to others and scares them away. I never could understand why dreams are so important to me. I guess I just like to be positive and challenge myself. I hate when people try too hard to be there for me… but I hate even more when they give up. Don’t spoon feed me, don’t tell me you love me but most importantly please don’t walk away. It seems that the more things that continue to change in my life the more I fail to get back on my feet. I’m here physically but emotionally I’m travelling across the universe in search of perfection and absolute happiness. I need to be knocked on my feet painlessly. I’m sick of feeling like i’ve been riding a roller coaster for hours and hours now super dizzy and ready to crash to the floor. I’m still holding back… It’s time to move on, it’s beyond time to move on. But i’m still here… Waiting, Waiting, please don’t forget.  Still hear

I guess I’ve always said things just like they are. But until this weekend i’ve never utterly outted a boss. I guess she really must have been an idiot. Over the weekend I experienced Resonate with a few friends, ran into a bunch of other friends and also saw my sister. I saw some bizzare things that night and I loved every moment of it. I’ve been working like 6 days straight and looking forward to a 3 day break. I’ve got myself into a steady routine that I don’t mind. Although i’m in this great routine I can’t wait to get away this summer and begin to reach my goals as a film maker. I have some confidential stuff about my film company that is pretty exciting. We have a few projects over the summer and possibly plenty more to come. If anyone needs something shot on film feel free to call and we will schedule a shoot.

Being nice and expecting nothing in return is a good philosophy… But I’m sick of getting the short end of the stick. It seems like for too long now I’ve been the one doing favors and getting walked all over. It’s really just too much for me to handle right now. I need to grasp my hands on something that I can take advantage of, something that I can squeeze for all the juice its got. I’m over my head. A dreamer, one that seeks things that were once said to be impossible. That is who I am, that is who I’ll be. I’m a man with desires. I’m done living up to your expectations. I don’t care about self image. All that is important to me is love and respect.

just got off work. i’m eating spaghetti. I’ve probably got about 230230203 things i should be doing but i don’t want to so i wont. I had my first good experience on the metra in a long time today. WAY better than yesterdays experience with the fat drunk man. I don’t get paid for 2 weeks and i’m almost in the negative. I should be hating my life right now but i’m not too worried.